yes! my blogger is finally ok again.

met jerrine last night to go for the topshop kate moss preview sale (: haha, i got a gorgeous cream jacket, and she got a red tank. its really funny how jerrine and i can not talk for a really long time, and then babble on endlessly about fashion and other nonsense. but it was really nice. haha. sitting in la mian xiao long bao talking and eating. i'll miss all this when i leave.

ever since i got that letter on sat. i've been thinking. tossing back and forth in my mind, what if i stay, or what if i go. i said once i'd consider staying only on one condition. and just so happens i got it. and suddenly i wasn't so clear again on whether i should go or not. but after talking to jerrine, and seeing you last week, i think i really need to go overseas. i was never good at letting go, moving on. so the only way i can escape from all that has been pulling me down, is to physically escape i think. but other than escaping all these, i want to explore the world (: i love to travel. and i know if i go london, i'd get to see alot more things than i would get to staying here. plus i've been preparing since j1 to leave spore. all the letters have been written over the past 2 years. sitting in my project letters box.

i've actually been looking forward to the day i can give those letters out. and put to rest some things.

everyone's moved on from that 2 weeks. only me. i'm stuck in limbo. revolving around that time. that place.

its amazing how attached i am to smells actually.

i miss screw. really badly.

: last night :: p. diddy :